Letter to Myself

Dear Me,

I’m writing to tell you it’s good to be back,
The pain you have suffered wasn’t in vain.
I’ve been gone for so long, but now here I am,
Accepting the scars, the sorrows, the disdain.

I never meant to be gone for so long,
I’m sorry. I know you felt lost and depressed.
I’m sorry I forgot where I truly belong.
I left you alone and got lost in a trance…

I know you felt lonely, abandoned and scared,
Anxiety lurking wherever you looked.
In searching for me, you forgot who you were
And grabbed onto others in your search for the truth.

I know how much you hated that you felt insecure,
Despising yourself for falling so low,
For seeking approval from all but yourself,
For not knowing your value, for how desperate you were.

I know. And I love you. I’m finally home,
I’m here to support you through no matter what.
It’s alright, you’re still you—undone, beautiful.
I love and accept you; I embrace all your thoughts.

I love you. I love you! I mean it so much!
I know who you are and the lessons you’ve learned.
Together—I promise—we’ll find our way out,
Together—a team. I’m awake and you’re strong.

We’ll fight through the darkness, through fears—we are bold.
You make the decisions, I’ll follow prepared.
We’re in this together, I—the shield, you—the sword,
We complete each other. We love and we dare.

With Love,
Me

P.S.: Alis volat propriis.

With Love

To the one who knows me whole,
From outside and to my core:
Facets hidden from the light
Do not mean darkness or night.

To the one who sees within
All the wrongs I can’t redeem,
All the shards, the broken parts:
Those I cannot disregard.

To the one who hears my thoughts,
Waterfalls on rusty floors,
Burdens piling to the sky:
All of these I won’t deny.

To the one who loves all these:
Imperfections will not cease,
But I am unique through them,
This I’ve come to understand.

To the one who makes me see
That I’m free—unicity:
Keep on loving every dent,
None of them will I resent.

To myself,
With Love.

– Patricia