Learning My Lesson

Look at you!… You’re here again.
Crying yourself to sleep once more…
You’ve let yourself trust yet again
And ended up hurting alone…

Manipulated, misunderstood,
Taken for granted, not enough…
Something you’ve always, always been,
Yet dared to think the change would last…

You’ve lost your skill, you’re insecure
And you’ll never be your best self.
Huh… And you thought you could escape
Your fears and nightmares… Think again.

You can’t trust others, haven’t you learned?
Just close up and don’t let them in.
‘Cause every time you’ve opened up,
You were torn apart by their indifference.

Always the one to first say “Hi,”
The only one making an effort,
And in the end, they walk past you,
Acting like you were never there.

It’s fine, ‘cause I’ve been there before
And it’s my fault, what can I say?
I’ll just trust less and less from now on.
They’ll judge me either way. Alone.

– Patricia

Emotional Loss

I hug you tightly one more time.
I know this means farewell for us.
You smile and laugh ‘cause you don’t know,
But I do—and it hurts so much.

I hug you tightly, hold you close
And laugh with you—as usual,
But when you’ll let me go, I know
That we will never be the same.

And you don’t know, you’re innocent,
So young—this kind of pain is far away.
I’m only learning of it now,
So, you are safe for years to come.

But I’ve grown up and all has changed,
I’m now starting to understand
All those who came before me and
Their fears, their sorrows and their loss.

I count the seconds. Vision—blurred.
I appreciate this so, so much.
You are so dear to me!… It hurts…
To know that this is our goodbye…

I let you go… You turn to leave…
I wave at you and smile… until…
You turn around and walk away,
Not looking back… And I break d
Letsmeetagainanotheruniverseo
Letsmeetagainanotheruniversew
Letsmeetagainanotheruniversen
Letsmeetagainanotheruniversein tears…

– Patricia