It’s time I sat down with myself
And had a chat before the dawn.
So many troubled thoughts compiled
And I’ve been running for far too long.
My life’s a mess and I am lost,
Grabbing onto whoever comes
To tell me who I am. Regret
Holding me back. Hungry for love.
I sit down and I think about
All the decisions I have made,
And all the problems I have caused
Simply because I only wait
For someone else to save my soul
Instead of being strong enough
Like I’d vowed to myself I’d be
Not long ago—five years have passed.
I had decided I’d be strong,
And yet somehow along the way
I lost myself again—felt cursed
To struggle just like this in vain.
My fears are tearing me apart,
As I turn nightmares into life.
Crippled and terrified by fear,
I can’t go back. There’s no fresh start.
But finally, something inside
Gets tired of the role I play.
I am the damsel in distress.
Okay, now also save the day.
“Stand up and save yourself right now.”
I hear a thought deep, deep within.
And finally, after so long,
I choose to listen to its voice.
I make this choice still feeling lost,
But I’m determined—I’ll hold on.
I’ve made myself so miserable
For far too long. Now I’ll be strong.
And I’ll be patient—I need time
To heal and to learn to love
All of myself—broken and numb.
I’ll focus on personal growth.
I’ve made my choice. I go to sleep.
And I sleep well: peaceful, content
Like I haven’t in so, so long.
I go to sleep before the dawn.
And I wake up determined, strong:
I have myself. I get to work.
It’s tough, it’s hard, I feel confused,
But one thing’s clear: I’m my own song.
– Patricia
Da Capo al Poetry 