Tag: Change

This isn’t who I knew I was

Acting on impulse every time and letting anger take control,
I drank the poison of envy and don’t know myself anymore.
I used to work hard for my dreams, facing the challenges head-on,
Yet now I hide and rarely seek to free myself from inner wars.

I am aware of what I am and of what I’ve started to be,
Hating the change with all my soul and wishing to somehow be free.
Yet I don’t fight back anymore, I just complain and watch the change.
So sad to know it’s all up to me, yet I wait powerless, then rage.

Dissatisfied and incomplete, I loathe myself for what I choose.
So powerless, yet blind to see that all the strength is here. Confused.
And while I’m stuck, everyone else carries their battles courageously.
I wait and do nothing to change the self-pitying melody.

I could, I could. And yet… I don’t. I won’t.

– Patricia